One moment at a time

This is a journey about the healing and closure. Reassessing my picture of the world and my place in it.

All is well
All is right
Harder to understand
in my mind.

Time is flying. Time is mind. Time is death. 2018 is gone. Gone with it’s months, days, hours, minutes and seconds. Only memories, feelings are still here. I wish to go back with my body. Hug and kiss. Give a little bit more moments for the future.
Walk along the road, thoughtfully, as ups and downs, comes and goes. Make things harder and easier. The energy is losing. Death start knocking at the door. We born and die in a single moment. This is certain, nothing can succeed against death. You can try to postpone it, but it is the same. Death is the essence of life. This is the peak. You cannot be an exception not to reach it. Life is a journey towards death, whatever you do, wherever you go. Death is coming to take all future opportunities. Fear is arises because of an unlived life.
Sadness hang in the air. A life is filled with moments where people come to teach us something and help us grow and then they go. Grief-stricken days. The entire way I looked at life is shifting. Gaining distance from the event is giving me opportunity to reflect on it. Searching for some kind of lesson in the unfairness and suffering that I’d seen during the preceding years. I must have learned something from it. I can’t stop thinking about it, but I feel empty on the inside.
We are more than bodies. Death is not the enemy. We have been before birth and we will be after death, so how can be true? This is just an episode where we change form. We have died many times and still we are alive.
Time is running out. It’s almost too late. Time is now. Live totally in full awareness. This is the place where I need to be. I’m honored for your time and efforts. The breathing has stopped. You as who used to talk to me is no more here. Your journey ended here in this temporary living body. I don’t find You anymore in your individual form to be there for me as you used to. I know your personality disappeared, but You are not dead!

“Look forward to taking up a new and better form. Like the sun, only when you set in the west can you rise in the east.” - Rumi

Everything is alright. All your limitations disappeared. You, beautiful Soul… You are whole. You return home with joy. To begin a different and better level of being. One is waiting ahead.

“Goodbyes are only for those who love with their eyes. Because for those who love with heart and soul there is no such thing as separation.” - Rumi

Each death is a challenge. Its time is unexpected. A reminder that everything can disappear at any moment. Everything is only for one time, then forms change. One breath separates them. Each end is always a beginning. Journeys will continue. Presents us the possibilities for progress.

“This being human is a guest house.
Every morning a new arrival.
A joy, a depression, a meanness,
some momentary awareness comes
as an unexpected visitor.
Welcome and entertain them all!
Even if they’re a crowd of sorrows,
who violently sweep your house
empty of its furniture,
still, treat each guest honorably.
He may be clearing you out
for some new delight.
The dark thought, the shame, the malice,
meet them at the door laughing,
and invite them in.
Be grateful for whoever comes,
because each has been sent
as a guide from beyond.” - Rumi

Death is all around us, since everything is changing from moment to moment, it’s occurring everywhere at all times. We have to learn to let go. When we lose we gain. Nothing remains unchanged and that makes progress possible. There is always an opportunity to reborn, to remain for ever and ever.

Angkor Wat means "Temple City" or "City of Temples" in Khmer; is a temple complex in Cambodia and one of the largest religious monuments in the world. Originally was built as a spiritual home for the Hindu god Vishnu, but it was gradually transformed into a worship to Buddhism, which continues to the present day. The complex is an architectural triumph laden with artistic treasures and tell enduring tales of Cambodian history and legend. For several centuries Angkor was the center of the Khmer Kingdom. With impressive monuments, several different ancient urban plans and large water reservoirs, the site is a unique concentration of features testifying to an exceptional civilization. There are several theories about why the biggest city of the pre-industrial world was abandoned.
Researchers attribute Angkor’s demise to a series of catastrophic events. Water was central to the development. Channels and reservoirs were constructed to collect and store water for agriculture. The control of water also played a religious role in Angkor society. In the 1300s, Angkor began suffering from a persistent drought. Followed by several years of unusually strong monsoon rains. The city’s water management system seemed to have been unable to cope with the intense flooding and its infrastructure suffered intense damage. Angkor eventually collapsed. Many of the temples were later overgrown by jungle, while others remained important religious sites for the Khmer. Until the 1860s little attention was paid to the wonders of Angkor. Its ruins aroused Western interest from those years.
After the worst days of Khmer Rouge people need Angkor more than ever. Today it is one of the seven wonders of the world, an UNESCO World Heritage Site, illustrated on the national flag and the most visited part in the country. Contributes significantly to the national economy and the lives of Cambodians. Angkor represents a great symbol of the rebirth.

You beautiful Soul.
It’s time to say goodbye
just for a while.

You have to go
I have to go
on my way of life.